 I see you. I see you struggling to wake up, feeling restless and alone. I see you going through the motions to let everyone around think that you are okay. I see you smiling despite feeling despair in the pit of your stomach. I see you filled with anger at the world and the atrocities that human beings invoke upon one another. The unknown is terrifying; it keeps us up at night and it fills our days with uncertainty. I want a solution. I want an answer. I want everything to be okay. I have learned to sit with my emotions and allow them to take up residence if that is required or let them move through my body. I am very familiar with anxiety. It is my nemesis and it is my SIGN. Anxiety used to make me wretch and reel against it. It would squeeze me into places that I don’t fit, pushing me beyond my limits into a state of frenzy, a blinding emotional pain. I couldn’t understand for the life of me why I suffered in this way and to this extent. I began to understand that it was a part of my intuition, my natural navigation system, a barometer of not only my feelings but the feelings of every single human being that I came into contact with physically or even electronically (email, text, social media.) This realization made my head spin. I felt helpless and alone. For a few years, I felt that I was a victim of my intuition. Being overwhelmed with emotions every minute of every day became relentless and exhausting. It wasn’t until I realized that my feelings, as I see them now, were parts of me that needed my attention, compassion, love and kindness. Anxiety is a part of our lives to determine fight or flight, whether an incoming situation is to be dealt with or to run away to safety. I suspect that many of you reading this want to run away from what is happening in the world, to find a cure for the pandemic and to return to what was comfortable. I can assure you that comfort does not work in tandem with what causes us pain. Healing from trauma, dysfunction or an environment that hurts us, is painful. If it was comfortable everyone would want to rush to understand what has been plaguing their thoughts. They would easily triumph over them, embrace their growth and move forward with an unparalleled confidence. That’s not how healing begins, it hurts, it pulls us apart, absorbs our thoughts and takes up residence in our spirit. Over the past 6 months I have witnessed and felt in my body all of the emotions with each and every client that I have seen. I too have fallen apart and surrendered to my feelings. They weren’t washing over me, sometimes I still live in a tsunami. Some of us bury our feelings and compartmentalize them into other places, hiding them from the truth. The truth is, we need connection, we need to be engaged with other human beings, strangers, acquaintances, partners and family members. We need safety, we need security and most of all we need to be seen. I see you, in all of your glory, in the pits of emotions that make you sweat and I see you doing the best that you can. All you can do is your best, despite what is happening around you. You are not weak, you are not inept, you have been shoved into the unknown, an ocean of everything and nothing. You are trying to right yourself, to get your bearings. I recommend making space for yourself, even if for a few minutes before bed, to listen to a guided meditation, to enable you to connect to your spirit. You are resilient AF. You are perfect as you are. Right now, nurturing you, is the best thing that you can do. Please remember, your loved ones that are in spirit hear you, see you and feel you. They will support you from the spirit world, ask them for assistance, their presence and to become aware that you are not alone. Lots of love, Ursula xo
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 I want to impart wisdom, security and insight with each blog that I write however, those words come with a very tall order. I neglectfully stopped writing many months ago and focused my energy on surviving. With the onset of the pandemic and the requirements that I had to meet in my daily life some demands fell by the wayside. Individual readings increased ten fold and I was wrapped up in people’s lives with an intensity that took an emotional toll. All of us have watched the world crumble and we adapted. To witness a disease take over the world and watch it end many lives is terrifying, with it comes a flood of pain that I have felt deep within my soul. When news of the pandemic unfolded, I couldn’t discern between my feelings and the waves of emotions that I felt viscerally in my body which was the energy of people around me suffering. I generally have a heightened level of awareness that affects my environment, connections with people and animals. My two cats began to cling to me as they reacted to my physical and emotional discomfort. Many business ideas flooded my mind to produce videos to help people to understand the supernatural and paranormal. I created short videos with easily understood segments for you to share with others. Personally, I dislike complicating anything. I need the coles notes version rather than formal explanations. Over time I saw the pandemic as a way to sit with our feelings. It’s shocking to me the number of people that I see that overwork, over schedule themselves which makes them anxious, it’s mind boggling. Individual readings over the past several months have been very difficult. I’ve been witnessing people suffering for a myriad of reasons, losing a family member, employment, mental health and for some experiencing domestic violence. I have had sleepless nights feeling powerless over my clients lives. There is hope, I have observed courageous, vulnerable people who are managing, despite their narrative. I see their resilience, depth of character and strength of spirit. I have done my best to support you, through live videos, I took some of you on a journey of guided meditations and one of them enabled you to meet your people in spirit! I want you to know that I’m here, a little bruised, battered and hopefully wiser. To be honest, times have been problematic which has brought me to my knees sobbing and experiencing the pandemic has shown me who I am. I continue to fall apart as I embrace that my feelings need to be acknowledged and I know that I do not have all the answers. It’s very important for me to nurture myself. I assure you that embracing your feelings and identifying your fear will reduce your anxiety and enable you to meet your own needs. I wish you healing for those that are sick. I wish comfort for those that have transitioned and for those of us that grieve their passing. Most of all I wish you love in times of discomfort, loss and anxiety. You are beautiful beings dealing with a crisis. In the unknown, we have each other. I send you love, healing and peace. Ursula xo  Emotional intelligence and providing space for people is not a topic that is raised with frequency and discussed in depth. Our feelings are directly linked to our intuition. I wouldn’t have believed that fact if you had spelled it out to me in large looming letters. I had to live it to know it’s impact and how I navigate my life. Some people run on autopilot, familiar with their routines and running on empty. The social norms are to ask how you are and what you’ve been up to answer with pat phrases that comply with a mundane auto response. How you feel directly impacts your life, it invades your relationships, work life, family and communication. If you reach out to a friend right now and told them that you were falling apart, they would respond with a solution, rather than listening to your plight. You may be reading this and asking yourself “Why would a psychic medium be discussing my emotions?”
I’ll tell you why and explain it in detail. A reading encompasses your past, present and future. It delves into the very fabric of your life, displaying to me your triumphs, failures, activities and behaviours. Our feelings shape our world. They provide a perspective that only we can decipher. They can overwhelm us, spin us out and dictate a response to them that could have negative consequences. It’s what we do with our feelings that makes the difference in our thoughts, routine and actions. Attuning yourself to how you feel will enable you to develop self awareness, in turn amplifying your intuition. When your intuition gets louder you start to listen and pay attention. Feelings can be insignificant, fleeting and obtuse. It’s the feelings that linger, state their presence that we either listen embracing what they need to show us or we push them away and avoid them. This is what you do with your intuition on a daily basis. What would happen if you gave your intuition the time and attention that it needs? You would make better choices, become attentive to friends in need, pick up cues that were benign and see them for what they truly are, signs directing you to help yourself or others. It pains me to hear how often people dismiss their feelings. There are circumstances where they become problematic. I am talking about the niggling, the discomfort or excitement that takes up residence in your body, trying to get you to notice them. These markers are your intuition hard at work, while your brain turns these signs into thoughts blown out of proportion. You tell yourself that something bad is coming, that you’ve done something wrong or that you’re not good enough. These statements are the furthest from the truth when your intuition is involved. I hope that in time you’ll explore the possibilities and give yourself the credit that you deserve. Your intuition knows what’s best for you. Please start to listen to hear it’s greatest rewards. Love, Ursula xo  I recall quite vividly my experiences with feeling, seeing and hearing people in spirit, especially when I was a very young child. It was unsettling, paralyzing and very confusing. It took me a long time to understand, learn and embrace my abilities. I hit a lot of roadblocks with teachers and decided to pursue my development on my own.
I want you to know that intuition is a skill that has been present from the moment you arrived here as a baby and that it will never let you down. Intuition (psychic ability) and Mediumship (talking to/with people in spirit) are NATURAL skills that the human race possesses. It can be perceived as complicated or you can see it as I do, a tool to enable you to navigate your life, decisions with work, family, relationships and life. If you haven’t acknowledged it and you want to know the in’s and outs of it, I will show you, in a compassionate, fun and experiential way. Perfection does not exist and we all have something to bring to the table that is unique and awe inspiring. I am adamant and confident in my decision to help people to understand the metaphysical world. It’s important to me to show you how to talk to your loved ones that you grieve, to connect you to your innate intuitive skills and to build your bond with your animal companions. I don’t want you to spend another second in this life missing out on a whole new world. Join me to explore and discover your abilities!  I spoke with someone recently and they asked me, "Where do you see yourself in the next 5 years?" I paused for a moment and the words fell out of my mouth with ease. I said, "I don't have a clue where I'll be in 5 years. In life, you can plan all you want but it never turns out the way you want." I agree that manifesting works, I believe in feeling what you want and need, however, this does not mean that you will land where you want to be specifically.
This same thought process is what I come across quite frequently with people and their version of what a reading is. I too want to hear validation and to be acknowledged for my efforts. Life is not predictable. I do not purport myself to only deliver future predictions. It's not humanly possible. If perfection existed I would be younger, live in an exotic place, be with the love of my life and have an unlimited bank account. Careful what you wish for, that is a cliche that doesn't have any place in truth. As you're reading this you might be asking yourself, "Why would I get a reading then?" I will be the first to tell you to not focus all of your energy on the reading that you receive. If you've recorded it, put it in a safe place, give it some time and listen to it in a month. Time is not linear and I tell my clients that if I'm given a day or month during a session that it could change, it's elusive. Again, you must be asking yourself, "Why would I book a reading?" My answer, "You don't have to or need to." If someone close to you has transitioned and you want to communicate with them, if you are listening to your intuition and want to know more, if you want to observe the roles that you've played and how your experiences have changed you and want to navigate a healthier approach to life....Have a reading. If you're never ready. That's okay. It is an experience like no other. To be completely honest I have had my clients yell at me mid reading claiming that they are so angry that they can't stand it! I've been told that all they want to hear is the solution, not the work in between, not the building blocks to bring you to a place of clarity. They want a swift painless solution that sounds perfect to them. If you think that a reading is going to give you the only solution and the short cut you will be very disappointed. If you want to identify markers to know that you're on track, acknowledge your strengths, see your weaknesses and be kind with yourself...have a reading. A reading is not the be all and end all. It's a way to help you observe yourself in a kind way. A reading should acknowledge your past and where you are presently. If all you hear are future predictions you're being ripped off. Take your money and leave. Sending all of you love, Ursula xo  There has been a change in my approach online recently because I have felt a person shift. I am very careful to strike a balance between the fine line of my personal life and professionalism.
People long to belong, be a part of something, have purpose and experience being loved by another human being. These things make us HUMAN and literally connected. I have been struggling with so much personal stuff lately that it has literally been haunting me. Without sharing my life, I want to let you know that life can be painfully brutal and that you need to know that it is okay to want to run away, hide under a rock, stay away from everyone and melt down. I have noticed a pattern with people. I see that the fear of facing their feelings, embracing them and absorbing them is so frightening that they rather pretend that none of them exist. I was once this way and I too, had no idea how much I was standing in my own way, resisting loving people and missing out on opportunities. Being empathic has been extremely difficult for me at times, especially when I am in pain. As human beings we can experience hundreds if not thousands of feelings throughout the day. Some are fleeting, some are blips on our radars and some of them cut so deep that they stop us from functioning. Advice from an empathic intuitive human being;
Ursula xo  There are so many preconceived ideas about my profession that they boggle my mind. I understand why there is so much controversy, table tipping, seances and ectoplasm! Need I go on?
I encourage you to question what is on the internet, television shows and movies about the paranormal or supernatural. Using Google to discern authentic and genuinely skilled psychics or mediums is an exercise that will deflate all of your hope for the truth! I highly recommend avoiding psychic chat lines, these companies keep their clients on the phone charging astronomical rates by the minute to hear the so-called psychic read from a script! If you see an advertisement of an intuitive claiming to give you all of the solutions to your love relationships, find your dream partner and perfect romance...RUN!!! There is not a quick fix to anything in this life. The answer is, human beings are complex, layered and their experiences shape their perspectives. This doesn’t mean that we are all inherently flawed and toxic. It means that our own navigation system, our intuition is hard at work and we often ignore its presence and importance. Here are a few truths that I have discovered in my life while I was trying to understand and accept my intuitive skills.
Stick with me...it's going to get better & easier! Love you all, Ursula xo  It fascinates me how people ignore their intuition, their innate gut feeling nags at them and they make excuses for their discomfort. Growing up I was guilty of this as well. I found it confusing and frustrating. Over the years I have come to understand that how you feel about yourself and those around you has a literal physical and emotional effect.
I used to talk to animals using a baby voice that most people demonstrate with their fur babies. I have been reading animals without really paying attention to it. That sounds odd, doesn’t it? As I progressed in my skill set I recognized that I was feeling and hearing animals speak to me. I made jokes at first with my friends stating what I thought their dog was saying. Turns out, I was accurate. That was twenty years ago and from that moment on I challenged myself to speak to any animal that came across my path. A while ago I was out for a walk on a beautiful summer day. In front of me was a gorgeous Doberman leashed to their pet parent and they were walking in front of me. I spoke to her in my thoughts. As I began to say hello and ask her how she was she turned to face me and stopped mid-walk crossing the street and refused to walk forward. She was so excited that I could hear her. She was reprimanded for stopping and I felt bad so I told her goodbye. She continued on her walk and she didn’t stop again. I started reading pictures of people’s fur babies and was accurate. I didn’t need to be near them to know and understand their lives or concerns. I used to be frightened of an angry dog. I would not put myself in harm's way if a dog was reacting to something and unable to control themselves. I have been experiencing the most amazing things with the animals that I engage and speak to, using my thoughts and energy. I was at a group reading 5 months ago. The home had 2 very small dogs (8 to 10 lbs) that were barking so loudly and constantly that it is piercing and very uncomfortable. I walked into my clients home, they kept barking, I walked into the living room where my group was and the dogs kept barking intensely. Their pet parent kept telling them to be quiet, I did not say a word. I sat on the floor and I filled the room with a sense of comfort, support and love. I told them both that I was safe, that I was here for them and I would protect them. They immediately went quiet and curled up in their pet parents lap. They stopped. Halfway through the reading they overreacted again and starting barking. If I had time only for them, I could have discovered their reasons and what they needed to help them feel secure. Reading animals is easy. They are not complicated. They are not complex. They remember their environments, their people and what has affected them positively or negatively. I recommend not speaking to your pet and just focusing on emanating an energy that you want them to feel; love. That action alone will change how they perceive and react to you. Give it a try...no one will know. Sending all of you so much love! Ursula xo  Over the years I have unwittingly morphed into a nomad. It wasn’t a choice; it was a necessity. I have been seeking a place of solace with a strong supportive community. This had been a tall order that the Universe had neglected to fulfill; until now.
I recently moved to Guelph. There are several complex reasons why I ended up in this liberal minded community. I lived in Toronto many years ago and often thought that I would return. I distinctly and audibly heard spirit telling me to move to Toronto starting in February 2016. Moving back felt exciting, I was going to establish a great new social circle, see the city and immerse myself in it. Instead, I recognized that my abilities had taken over my life and this revelation was both disturbing and fatiguing. There were days that I could not leave my home. I prefer to be out and about, experiencing new things and taking in the sites. Instead, I rudely discovered that working full time in my profession had magnified my senses to an intensity that were not humanly manageable. This didn’t happen overnight. It took time where I spent entire days locked in my apartment trying to find ways to reinforce my boundaries. I started on a search to find a person that could assist me with my unusual problems. I did and I was astonished with the incredible results. At first I was reluctant to share my profession with this new person. Furthermore, I felt exposed and vulnerable. Working with Joanna helped me change my practice as a psychic and more definitively as a medium. There is much more to share with you which I will go into at a later date. In the meantime, I encourage you to contact her, she is warm, empathic and incredibly insightful. www.joannafurtadotherapy.com Guelph is new, I’m slowly starting to feel at ease. Living in a large city previously had impacted my senses and spatial awareness. I was amused to discover that Google Maps is correct with it’s ETA. In Toronto it was chronically unreliable. I was talking to the bank teller at my financial institution and mentioned my move to Guelph. He brought up the traffic congestion problem. I burst out laughing without thinking. He looked down and became flushed. I shared with him that it would take me 45 minutes to an hour to drive 4 kilometers from my apartment to the Gardiner Expressway. Enough said. Until Next Time. Sending love your way! Ursula xo  I used to think that being psychic was akin to possessing magic. That is the furthest thing from the truth. Learning to use your intuition demands a new set of tools. Many people have an adverse reaction when I list the requirements for developing your intuition. I have attended classes periodically as a young adult which I hoped would improve my psychic ability. I found them to be outlandish and cryptic. I endeavored on my own to find an easier and palatable approach to my goals.
This is what I have learned. 1. Using your intuition isn’t an external experience. There isn’t a booming voice that appears out of the clouds, hits you over the head and deems you worthy. Intuition is an innate human skill. You already use it on a daily basis! 2. It’s simple. As long as you meditate, establish self awareness and develop discernment. All of these adjectives take time, patience and commitment. 3. Your 5 senses are the key to your development. Listen to your body, pay attention to your feelings, listen to the voice in your head that prompts you to follow through on your gut feeling. No, you don’t have indigestion. It’s your intuition. Listen!! 4. Meditation wasn’t created to invalidate, frustrate and piss you off. It is essential to your psychic development. I can assure you that it gets easier. The more you meditate the more psychically sensitive you become. 5. It is mandatory to park your emotions to accurately access your intuition. Much love to you on your journey of self discovery! Ursula xo |
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