As a child when I told an adult the truth about what I was experiencing I was told that I was making it up, dismissed and gas lit. In my teens, I went to several family members, guidance counselors, my family doctor even, and they all told me that what I said couldn’t possibly be true. As an adult, I reached out to psychic’s, healers, spiritual leaders and teachers. They too didn’t believe me.
Not being believed for telling the truth left me feeling constantly frightened, confused and alone. I learned that being vulnerable, sharing my emotions and what I was going through wasn’t valued. I hid my emotions to stay safe and kept my experiences a secret because I didn’t want to feel any worse than I already did. I committed to keep everything to myself, a message that stayed with me my entire life, until a little while ago.
Growing up I had a very curious nature, one where I would seek out people and have them share with me their story. I wanted to know what they had been through. Looking back, I know now why I felt compelled to learn about their life experiences. Deep down I wanted to know what it took to get through life. Was it courage? Was it bravery? Was it being resourceful? Throughout the years I had met anyone who was able to be vulnerable with me. They would share darkness, difficulty and struggle and wrap it up in a bow with a perfect ending. They would skip over the vital parts of their journey. As did I, because no one believed me.
My curiosity has not waned since I was a teen. In fact, it’s just as strong. Considering my profession, I STILL want to know people’s stories. I have been grossly disappointed by my family members, friends, doctors and spiritual guides throughout my life, let down at critical, even life threatening moments. I have learned to become fiercely independent, resourceful, courageous and devoted to heal myself from my history.
I have been ultra careful to not blur the line between my personal and professional life. I believe in people and their innate ability to grow, learn and empathize. In my profession, I help people everyday through difficult situations, painful pasts and present agonizing moments. I am here for the people who weren’t believed, listened to or supported. I see you. Over the coming weeks and months through instructional videos I will introduce you to ways that I have learned to cope emotionally and spiritually.
Ursula has been a medium since she was a child and enjoys sharing her experiences!