The upside down
I want to impart wisdom, security and insight with each blog that I write however, those words come with a very tall order. I neglectfully stopped writing many months ago and focused my energy on surviving. With the onset of the pandemic and the requirements that I had to meet in my daily life some demands fell by the wayside. Individual readings increased ten fold and I was wrapped up in people’s lives with an intensity that took an emotional toll. All of us have watched the world crumble and we adapted. To witness a disease take over the world and watch it end many lives is terrifying, with it comes a flood of pain that I have felt deep within my soul.
When news of the pandemic unfolded, I couldn’t discern between my feelings and the waves of emotions that I felt viscerally in my body which was the energy of people around me suffering. I generally have a heightened level of awareness that affects my environment, connections with people and animals. My two cats began to cling to me as they reacted to my physical and emotional discomfort.
Many business ideas flooded my mind to produce videos to help people to understand the supernatural and paranormal. I created short videos with easily understood segments for you to share with others. Personally, I dislike complicating anything. I need the coles notes version rather than formal explanations. Over time I saw the pandemic as a way to sit with our feelings. It’s shocking to me the number of people that I see that overwork, over schedule themselves which makes them anxious, it’s mind boggling. Individual readings over the past several months have been very difficult. I’ve been witnessing people suffering for a myriad of reasons, losing a family member, employment, mental health and for some experiencing domestic violence. I have had sleepless nights feeling powerless over my clients lives. There is hope, I have observed courageous, vulnerable people who are managing, despite their narrative. I see their resilience, depth of character and strength of spirit.
I have done my best to support you, through live videos, I took some of you on a journey of guided meditations and one of them enabled you to meet your people in spirit! I want you to know that I’m here, a little bruised, battered and hopefully wiser. To be honest, times have been problematic which has brought me to my knees sobbing and experiencing the pandemic has shown me who I am. I continue to fall apart as I embrace that my feelings need to be acknowledged and I know that I do not have all the answers. It’s very important for me to nurture myself. I assure you that embracing your feelings and identifying your fear will reduce your anxiety and enable you to meet your own needs.
I wish you healing for those that are sick. I wish comfort for those that have transitioned and for those of us that grieve their passing. Most of all I wish you love in times of discomfort, loss and anxiety. You are beautiful beings dealing with a crisis. In the unknown, we have each other.
I send you love, healing and peace.
Ursula has been a medium since she was a child and enjoys sharing her experiences!