It's been quite the journey arriving to the place that I'm in at the moment. When I connect with people I'm met with questions about how I discovered my senses, when it started and how I got here. To be honest, I didn't have a supportive family that guided me here, or mentors. It's been a series of mistakes, growing pains, practice and adopting a willingness to face my fears. Looking back, I realize that I have seen and heard spirits for most of my existence, the earliest of my memories was when I was 5 years old. I was so
scared at night that I would ask my brother to sleep in the spare bed in my room. Turns out, that after much discussion years later that he too, would be surrounded by spirits all night long. I want to tell you that I
have embarked on this fabulous journey and that all has turned out perfectly. I would be lying, let's leave it to Hollywood to glamorize and sensationalize my profession.
I have been on a mission to find out who, what, where, when and how I could find someone to explain to me what was occurring in my life. I didn't have a clue. Everyone I turned to dismissed, judged and mocked my experiences and my character. It wasn't easy or enlightening. I was angry, because most nights I was woken by spirits in my bedroom or wherever I had slept that night, on vacation, in a hotel, a friends house, you name it they were there! I didn't respond to their presence. I was too scared and didn't know how to connect with them. I compare the experience to owning a new cell phone that you've never used before, you can hear the caller but don't know how to respond. I started exploring "New Age" which is what it was coined at the time, in my late teens. I went to a multitude of workshops, studying Therapeutic Touch, Touch for Health, Reiki, Crystals and Angels and the list goes on. I read Louise L. Hay books, Doreen Virtue, Caroline Myss (one of my favorites), Marianne Williamson, to name a few. None of them addressed what I was STILL experiencing. None of the authors spoke of spirits, ghosts, apparitions, NADDA!! I failed to make the connection. I tried using pendulums, tarot cards, and reading people, but I was told by a close friend who claimed to be psychic, that I wasn't very good and that I shouldn't try. I believed her, for many years.
Upon reflection of my past, I had tonnes of psychic and mediumistic experiences but had no IDEA that's what it was. I started to feel like I was unbalanced mentally. When everyone I turned to for help, friends, peers, teachers of the esoteric dismissed me, I began to think that I should give up trying to find an answer. I told myself that I was done, finished, not interested it's over, let's stop pursuing this crap and move on!!
That's when I moved into a haunted apartment in Toronto......
Ursula has been a medium since she was a child and enjoys sharing her experiences!