When I was a child I recall going to bed with what I called "Eye Aches." I would sob myself to sleep in pain. I would become overwhelmed emotionally and shut down with headaches that left me hidden in my room with the curtains drawn. Today, they would have been considered migraines. I now know that I was an empathic child, surrounded by spirits and I felt horribly misunderstood.
One of the earliest memories I had with spirit was when I was 10 years old. For some reason, in a flippant humorous fashion, my mother told me that when she died she would come back to haunt me. This comment wasn't funny to me, it was terrifying. Our family dog Sammy, had gone missing, she was tied up to a chain outside of our house. It was December 1982, the winters were colder then with much more snowfall, and we searched for her for weeks. She broke the chain but had several feet of it still attached to her collar. My grandmother had been sick for a long time and she passed away January 1, 1983, the day Sammy arrived at our front door emaciated, on the edge of death too. The night that Sammy returned, I recall having a very vivid dream, I found myself standing on my driveway. My grandma appeared suddenly and approached me. I was scared to death. She came up to me and tried to hug me, she said that she loved me and asked how I was. In fear, I immediately told her to stop talking, to leave and not return. I realize now that she came to visit me before she went home. At the time I couldn't comprehend the amount of energy and effort it took for her to appear to me and that she came back to show me how much she loved me.
When people tell me that they don’t possess intuition I immediately ask them several questions. I’m determined to show them how their intuition presents itself in their everyday life. Have you ever dreamt of anyone you know that has passed including your pets? Did you have a conversation with them? How did they appear? What did they say? Sit with that for a moment. It’s a dream. It’s the easiest place for spirit to appear to us. We are in a relaxed state, not using our perceptions and judgements to block their energy. It’s a brilliant way to communicate and they do it all the time!! Next time you dream of someone, don’t dismiss them, if they’re alive they want your attention. Pay attention to the message, perhaps make a call and connect with them. You don’t know what they want to say to you unless you give them the opportunity
My career can be very intense with emotion and my clients often cry during their reading. It is painful to lose a loved one and it affects our lives with such great magnitude that it can stop us in our tracks. I am a strong advocate of therapy and place great importance on Grief Support Groups and individual therapy. Putting energy into your health and well-being can change your life for the better.
As a medium, I don’t feel that I have special privileges. I work energetically on a daily basis, not only as a psychic medium but as a registered massage therapist too. This heightens my awareness and makes me a conduit for information.
My closest friend passed away a year and a half ago, suddenly and without warning. I, like you, was devastated and I felt crushed by the weight of her absence. I don’t sit around speaking to spirits for the heck of it. I live here; I pay bills, have appointments, buy groceries and spend time with friends, just like you do. I had no idea what would happen when my friend left so abruptly. She passed on a Wednesday. The next day, I was outside sobbing, trying to make sense of the tragedy that had occurred. I heard my friend say, “hello”. I nearly jumped out of my skin. I was shocked and not expecting to hear from her. I responded and asked her why she had left. I then heard, “I was called.” She then vanished as quickly as she arrived. I was in disbelief. It was so vivid and comforting. “She got called.” It made sense. I didn’t feel relief or less hurt, I was numb with grief. I had outbursts that seemed to come out of nowhere, fits of screaming and sobbing, it flowed out of my being. I have never felt so alone or carried so much pain. I am not exempt.
I know that spirit lives on. It’s a reality, not a fallacy. It has always been my reality especially when I didn’t want it to be. It was and still is REAL. I don’t have the answers. I don’t know why we die, where we go or what we are doing on the other side. I learn from spirits in readings, they teach me what they see, hear and feel. They visit us. They know what’s happening in our lives and they see our future. They guide us, listen to us, and try their best to let us know that they exist. Without question, I know they are there. Do I have an advantage? Yes, I listen and do not dismiss their presence. I give them time to express themselves, I engage them and I believe them. I don’t hear a sound, or presence and think, ah, that must be my neighbors being noisy or think it’s my imagination. It is my REALITY. Someone is trying to get my attention, for the millionth time!!
I ask that you remain skeptical of every situation in your life. This approach will remind you to question your experiences. Be open to the possibility that your friends and family in spirit are close and with you. Allow your mind to be open to your imagination; it is the only way to access your intuitiveness. Always acknowledge someone in spirits presence, whether you say it out loud or in your head, they know. When you acknowledge them it allows them to get your attention. Being fearful will cloud your judgement, being emotional will stop the flow of information. Simply become the observer of them, and thank them for visiting. Being able to connect with spirit is INNATE. It is not something outside of you; it is something within you, an ability that we all share. Ask yourself when did you dream about your friend or family in spirit? Has it occurred often and when was it? Did you speak with them? Did you become afraid and wake up? They visit when you sleep because you are on guard and readily making excuses for their presence. Be open. Ask them to visit and give you a sign. Allow them to comfort you when you need it the most. This is their gift to you.
Ursula has been a medium since she was a child and enjoys sharing her experiences!