Adjustments need to be made
How about that? A year has gone by and I have not written a blog. I have been wrapped up in adjusting to Toronto, to personal challenges and to life. I HATE making excuses. Accountability and responsibility are extremely important to me. When I lived in Hamilton things were different. I had the support of my closest and longest friend, Leanne, who was also my personal assistant. I also lived in a city, which felt like the suburbs, not like the downtown core of Toronto where I currently reside. Excuses aside, here is what I discovered.
Since I decided to work full time in my career, which I did in October 2014 my life has changed dramatically in ways that I could not have imagined. Moving to Toronto opened up possibilities for me; I was sought out and interviewed by Post City Magazine. Around the same time I was contacted by a television producer and asked to audition for a few television shows that they had in development. I was contacted by a mother searching for her missing son. It was one of the most difficult reading that I have ever done; the emotional aftermath took me several weeks to recover from. My mother was in an accident that required 5 hours of surgery including pins and plates. My cats didn’t adjust well, wreaking havoc on my furniture and they weren’t themselves. The building I moved into was and still is under construction, listening to hours of drilling, hammering, constant noise has made me feel annoyed and frustrated. I have had long term friendships end and new ones evolve. Overall there has been constant change, which has drained me, emotionally. The most amazing part is that I have noticed that I can slip into a reading without preparation or effort. It just happens. It has become hazardous to my friendships and frustrating for me personally. I will adjust. I am adjusting. It’s taken much more time than I anticipated.
When you think you have it all figured out with your plans for your future and how things will unfold, read my blog. Personally, I have had to face a lot of challenges and fears that I didn’t know were issues, it has been very hard for me. Fortunately and I am very grateful for the support system I have in place, which includes other mediums and very close friends who are always present.
We are all guided to what we need to investigate further personally, examine it, let go of it and to face, whether we want to or not. Facing your fears requires courage on your behalf. The worst of what you imagine will rarely come to fruition. What you will discover in your hardships are parts of you that you didn’t know existed!! Sometimes we think we are weak, incapable or inept. We are not. Our family and friends in spirit will step in, when required and as requested. The rest is up to us.
11/29/2017 10:54:49 pm
Ursula! Things were so much simpler when you lived in Etobicoke and frequented the humbertown centre to visit me at shoppers :). I’m so proud of you for all of the changes that you have made to develop your career. Thank you so much for your honesty in this post, I think it really resonates with each and every person going through ups and downs in life. I truly miss you !! You are an amazing, strong, sweet, kind hearted woman.
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