Not only did my experiences start when I was very young, they happened in the middle of the night. I was plagued by shadows, spirit people talking, moving, and milling about my room. I was terrified. I didn’t comprehend what was happening and it took years to make sense of what I was seeing, hearing and feeling. Embracing this ‘gift’ as some call it, hasn’t always been rewarding. It has had its moments, with meeting angry spirits at haunted homes, feeling overwhelmed at friends’ residences (not being able to tell them was confusing and heart breaking) carrying the weight of everyone’s’ emotions that surrounded me was unbearable. I’m not like other psychics. I didn’t stumble upon a heavenly presence, or was greeted by divine beings that told me how to live, how to read and connect to the other side. It was a stumbling, emotion infused journey to where I am today. I would not trade it for the world; it has made me into the empathic, sensitive, compassionate person I am.
When I sought out healers, practitioners, psychics and mediums I was consistently met with disbelief. It saddened me further to think that there was something wrong with me and that I had to sort it out myself. The spirit visits intensified for me in 2007 to a crescendo that I couldn’t ignore. I was woken many times throughout the night by spirits talking, laughing, sobbing, mumbling, shuffling, stomping, walking, and knocking on walls, locking and unlocking my bedroom and outside doors. I thought I was mentally unstable.
I started educating myself about metaphysical practices 23 years ago. Like some of you I got caught up in the sensationalism that is brought to television shows or movies with the subject of the supernatural. You wouldn’t be surprised to know that it prevails with practitioners, healers and psychics as well. It’s a sort of status that some carry, it’s disheartening and dismissive. I have been rejected more often than embraced by others in my field. I was diagnosed several years ago with an illness and it spiraled me into emotional distress. I had to address some emotional wounds that I carried in order to gain some perspective on some destructive behaviour that I developed over the years.
My health, coupled with the intensity of spirits presence in my life was too much for me. I surrendered. That didn’t mean that I embraced my abilities. I fought them tooth and nail! I approached every event with a heavy dose of skepticism. I wanted to challenge it’s validity as I had been challenged over and over in my past by many practitioners. I had to prove to myself once and for all that I was a psychic medium. How could I not with everything that I had experienced to date you ask? Simple, when you’re told that you don’t know what you’re doing because you haven’t studied with a group of psychics, or haven’t attended classes with a famous intuitive, then I was considered by many to be a novice. I questioned everything, everyone especially myself. You see, being skeptical and exploring every avenue to understand your abilities will be the greatest adventure you will take on. If you think that you can have a career in this work and not address your emotional baggage, you’re mistaken. With every reading I give, I feel, hear and see my client’s life. It reflects back to my own experiences and highlights my emotional health. Question everything. Do not accept everything at face value. Discover your own truth and never take no for an answer. If someone turns you down, find a way around it and develop your skills. They are innate within us all. It’s how you cultivate them and share them with the world that will change your life.
Always use skepticism. It’s your ally on this journey called life.
Ursula has been a medium since she was a child and enjoys sharing her experiences!